『IamthinkingshouldIcallthefirst4PwithAhFairape.Inthe

    getmeinbedfirst,andusemyweaknessofafraidtoletothersknow

    andscreaming.Hemademeeshortly.Maybeitisthesituation,or

    sointenseIdidnotevencare.Amademecameagain,andthenasked“

    hintofhatredfromhowFeilookedatme,butthenthepleasurewas

    Itoldhimnottoeiofcourse,hedidnotlisten.

    againasIknewnowIneedprote.』

    aarget,andinsteadofdatingandso,AhFaitookashortcutto

    Atthefirsttime,whenFaiwasligmypussyhisfriendssaid,「看

    westernworld,thereisagreyareacalledrelut,meaningsomeone

    MaybeIamohose.Lagaregularsexlifeandlonenessmademe

    me.Ifeelsohumiliatedahoughtofitmakesmesick.』

    跟发型设计师的片段：『Istruggledabit,butsoonIwasjustmoaning

    Luckilymyperiodessometimeafter,andIstartedtakingmypills

    AabandonedFeiandcameover,replagB'splace.IthinkIsawa

    whoarenotawillingpartygettrickedintosubmittingtoasexual

    onthesofaandaimhiscockagainstmymessywetpussy.Hedidnot

    ThistimeIwasveryworried,asIhadstoppedtakingmypillforsome

    areuonthepill?”Ishakemyhead,butinsteadofpullingouthe

    justpushindeeperandshothishottomyt!』

    关于地下赌场的片段：『AfterIcamethe2ndtimeBjustpushedmedown

    种内心纠结的片段一再的出现：

    maybeIjusthadnothadgoodsexfortoolong.

    time(well,Idoohavesex,what'sthepointoftakingthe

    totraioasexobject.

    anddeep.AfterafewstrokeIfeltlikeingagain.Herideme

    situationthatshewasninallyintended,butendupenjoying.

    和阿辉一伙的事件，造成她内心很大的矛盾和不安，和她来往的信件中，类似这

    evenbothertoremovemydress,justliftitupandshoveditinhard

    tillucame,andthenpulledout.

    pills).